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I had a very human moment this afternoon.
I've spent the last week or so in observation of not only myself and my responses to those around me, but watching others and how they behave when everyone is watching. I guess at times we all have a tendency to put on a face. I try really hard not to. I mean, I get it, there are moments when you have to, it's just the way we roll as a society.
Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
I immediately felt the sting of my moral compass. It was lightening fast, and in a moments decision I ran out the door and stopped her in the parking lot and asked her if she needed a ride. She did.
It's a heat index of 102 degrees here, today. And I almost let her walk more than a mile and a half in the heat of the day to work. All she needed was a ride. And the truth be told, in this society she had just as much of a reason to be afraid of me being crazy as I was of her being crazy.
Sometimes we make decisions when no one is looking. Wrong or right, we do it out of greed, or selfishness. And on the other end of the spectrum we also do it for love of our fellow man, and respect.
There is something to be said about being led by a moral compass. It took me a long time to accept the fact that I am a bleeding heart ( or as "M" calls me, his Tender-heart Bear ) and I need to be okay with that. I almost let the awful news and fear that is instilled in to our hearts daily, turn down someone who needed simple help.
IT MATTERS WHAT YOU DO WHEN NO ONE IS LOOKING.
Some people will argue against that all day, and everyday.
When I take photographs I like to get the shots when no one is looking at the camera. When the kids are oblivious, or my friends are oblivious to the memory being recorded because those tiny and small moments add up.
I can't change the core of who I am. I guess I'll always feel badly and drop a $1 or what I might have in to the "bum's" hand at the corner, but I suppose it's better than being hateful and cursing him, because after all, we never know why or how someone ended up in a situation. Maybe that is why I'll never be rich. Maybe that is why I will never have a multi-million dollar home or an expensive vehicle. I don't really know. But I do know that "good" is good for the soul.
A few different thoughts crossed my mind on my way home this evening, after watching those I work with (at my real job) work through the hustle and bustle of our CEO arriving this afternoon. Red carpets. Press. The who's who in a small entertainment town...the thought was that I've worked so hard on myself and arriving at a simpler and more fulfilling life that I wouldn't change it for one bit. I didn't want to stay, I wanted to rush home and be with my family. A cold beer under the pergola, the sound of the kids bickering over nothing...my little dog greeting me with absolutely no expectations other than a simple brush across her head.
I love the dynamics of simple verses complicated. I love the balance it takes for us to co-exist. Every person and every piece is important. And I recognize that. What I wish is that everyone recognized the balance at the end of each day. That every single person you come across is important, for whatever reason, in whatever moment. Whether it is a lesson in patience, a lesson in philanthropy, or a lesson in anger, sadness...all of the emotions we run through as human beings.
I haven't had much time to write the last few months. I am trying desperately to keep up with The Hive and here on the blog, no promises, but looking at a weekly schedule at this point. Real life has seemingly taken on full speed and I don't see it slowing down.
Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
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Sometimes I think too much
and talk too loud...
Or is it talk too much and
think too loud...
The rush of emotions can
And knock me off of my feet
My heart races...
and my soul is open
The enormous weight I carry...
Is light as a feather...
and yet it takes all I have
To hold on...
i have to hold on
The self doubt is putrid...
and the insecurity a vice
The feelings come out...
in a jumbled mess
And I am still left...
with the fragments
That need sorted.