March 20, 2013

In The Palm Of Your Hand

I was thinking this morning of the profound way paths tend to cross.  Sometimes when they do, it takes years to see the immense way they can affect our future.  The people we call into our lives at a time of need, before the need actually presents itself.  Isn't it funny how the Universe protects us long before we see the potholes coming?

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I think of the anniversaries coming up of two of my very best friends (5 years! woo-hoo) in the entire world.  I know I write about them a lot.  But Michelle and Danielle are two women I couldn't see myself living without.  They keep me sane, and yet insane at the same time.  They constantly remind me of who I am and the importance of staying true to who I am, living from my heart and soul.  They are constantly reminding me of my own human nature, and never proceed to judge the way I live my life.  They see my dreaming and passion as an extension of my heart and soul, and they push me to be true to those dreams.  They encourage my temper and intuitive living, and yet discourage the worse traits I carry.  They love me for who I am, the beautiful disaster that others probably see.  Because they took the time to learn who I truly was. 




I have just in the last few weeks added more people to the collection of amazing encounters.  My amazing Taurean, Rebecca and the beautiful Pisces from Portsmouth.  I just have so many people to be so grateful for who are looking out for me, and truly embrace the mystical dreamer that I am.  I know their presence in my life has purpose. 

I thought about regret this morning, again.  And even through everything, I regret nothing.  When you think about regret, you can tenderly remind yourself of the positive things that have came out of what might appear to be the wrong turn, or wrong decision.  When in fact it wasn't wrong at all, there is always a reason.  There is always a lesson that unfolds further down the path. 

I was also in deep thought after a thought provoking realization last night.  In regards to love and the threads that tie up the fate of our lives, I thought about "full attention".  The conversation sparked exactly what I have been searching for.  In all relationships.  I give my full attention.  Always thinking of the people in my life, attempting to reach out a hand, even if I cannot see how I can help.  Never in my life, until now in my friendships, have I had anyones full attention.  I keep my circle tight, and while it's a large, engulfing tornado of amazing people, my inner circle is extremely tight.  Why is that?  Fear of acceptance?  Fear of the fact that some might turn my dreaming ways into a joke?  Probably.  But those who love the way I do, understand it.  They accept it.  They are slowly teaching me that it is okay to be who I am. 

I'd much rather have my dreams sitting in the palms of my hands where I can get a clear view, as opposed to the blurry edges of my fingertips where they can be quickly dismissed as only disregarded and crumpled up visions. 



I'd much rather have my love sitting in the palm of my outreached hand where it is visible, then to be locked up and have to be pulled out as if it were wrong.  Love should not be hard to see.  It should be visible.  It should simply, consume who you are.  You should never hide it, or be embarrassed of those feelings. 

So keep it in the palm of your hand where all can see, and I promise, even though timing is the control, that you will be rewarded.  Because someday, you will notice all of the people in your life who saw your visible love, and responded with love








I get my monthly horoscopes from gotohoroscopes.com.  Fantastic site!  Visit! Bookmark!

March 2013 horoscopeYour key to this month Leo is to avoid promising more than you can give to others. Keep those commitments that you have already made, but keep some for yourself.

From the 1st through the 20th will be a tender time for you Leo. Pisces Sun floats dreamily though your house of intimacy and conjuncts with romantic Venus on the 11th. Try not to overestimate what you are feeling right now; it can be only a symptom of the planets and the Sun. Temper your urges with a strong dose of common sense that will turn your dreams into reality.

During the first half of March you long to travel. You might be able to fill your need for travel by attending classes or learning a new language. Watch the Discovery Channel and become fascinated with your environment.

Your sense of adventure and travel rises higher on the 20th and 21st as spring begins, Leo. Plan your moves carefully during these days and try not to ruffle the waters. Make corrections as you move on through the month. Intense negotiations happen as Pluto squares to the Moon. You may find that there are many pleasant promises.

March 1st brings you the perfect combination of softness and strength. Pisces in her most compassionate and the Sun makes favorable bowing motions to Pluto and Saturn. Trust your judgment in relationships and don’t go too far. Give you heart to someone who is worthy of it. When you care about people they will care about you.

March 4th though the 7th asks you to take a careful review of your relationships. As Mercury retrogrades back into the Sun you will find that your relationships are not what they should be. Do not initiate partnerships or relationships during the 4th through the 7th. Set up priorities and focus on one subject at a time. Do be conservative in conversations and beware of stirring up angry emotions.

On March 6th and 17th you will need to make every would you say count. You may not get the cooperation you need if you come on too strong. As the Sun alignments with Saturn you may see that the physical weather in cloudy and your emotions are also fuzzy and hazy. On the 17th of March you will definitely need to watch your words, you temper, and your emotions. Don’t be catty, but do be forceful.

March 20th, through the 23rd will bring you feeling quite enthusiastic about your life. This is the spring equinox and you need to begin to make new changes. Are you living in the right place and with the right person? I think not. Make changes that will benefit you. You will be twitching with anticipation and need a change. Make it a good change for if you behave impulsively you will upset others and suffer conflicts that will cause pain and suffering. Keep your emotions and ideas original.

On the 28th of March you will literally hear the call of the wild. Let unconventional tastes an exotic attractions spice up your life. Fresh and full of vitality Spring will be a part of your life and give you a new feeling of enthusiasm and fun. Be happy. Now is the time to let go of winter.

March 19, 2013

Every you, Every Me

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It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You be running up that hill
You and me be running up that hill

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

You don't wanna hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There's a thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

You, be running up that hill
You and me, be running up that hill
You and me won't be unhappy.

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could, oh...

C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience, oh...'

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems [x2]

'If I only could, be running up that hill.'


Hope your week is awesome!  Sharing some of my fav music.  #Love Placebo

Live, love



March 18, 2013

"She said I think I'll go to Boston..."


      It's funny how life pulls us in different directions, some paths much more difficult than the others.  Regardless, my heart is set, and my path is laid out, probably with some wonderful surprises along the way.  It is certainly not comfortable, and will require the ability to bend my sails even more so than usual.

 Good thing I like challenges.
    
     I won't be able to update like I usually do, as I have a busy week ahead.  This weekend required rest, I think exhaustion had settled in.  Monday morning has brought clarity with it in regards to  my hearts desire, and interestingly enough, they are my own thoughts and desires.  Not those of someone else or influenced by anything other than what I want and need.  I hope you all enjoy your week. 

Live, love.  Always.

Tiffany Luv Wright Copyright 2013
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"The most confused we ever get is when we try to convince our heads of something our hearts know is a lie." Karen Moning







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"Boston"

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... she said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
She said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain...
Oh yeah and I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Boston...
No one knows my name.
 
 


March 16, 2013

Live, Love.


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Wandering through the dreams of my mind, I found you.
Through the troubles and worries, I arrived in your arms a beautiful disaster.
Taken by the strength and wonder, stumbling to your light.
A closed door, a window opened.
Once again I found myself breathing in the scent of you.
As we stood by the waters edge, I relaxed into your embrace.
The sights, smells, and strength overcoming my heart.
As I turned I realized the story had been there all along, waiting, simply on me to see.
That it was you, all along.


Tiffany Luv Wright Copyright 2013

Live, Love.



 

March 13, 2013

Revision and New Chapters

As I type my house is filling with the scent of Mag Champa and Bergamot.  Two of my favorite smells lately.  The Bergamot oil is mixed with distilled water.  You can use it as an energizing air freshener.  The Mag Champa, an incense stick, gives my home a peaceful scent.  I use it for meditation, when I find the time to reflect and ask for answers.  It smells like my favorite store in the entire world.  I could spend hours going through the books on balance, harmony, and astrology.  The quirky corner store, Renaissance, is one of my favorite places in the world. 

After much thought, and many deep conversations with my counterparts who really tear apart my writing.  They remind me to be true to myself, and to write the real story, I have decided to pull The Wooden Girl From Nevada.  This story isn't over.  And I am not finished writing it yet.  The ending doesn't fit.  It was missing something.  A few very important characters and ridiculous twists, and I have to add them.  It's driving me insane!

A few recurring dreams can be associated with the pull.  The missing tattoo, the very sand that my toes were sinking into, the smell and sounds associated with the dream, all little indicators that this story has only broke a tiny edge above the surface.  It's reaching for that next crescendo. 

An "AHA!" moment with a friend last night, analyzing the answers to my questions that come from our subconscious, was what sparked the final decision.  A sigh of relief was breathed in my closest of the close.  The texts and messages pouring in, cheering the re-writing of that ending.  It was a little overwhelming, but, exciting as well. 

The reasoning? 

A look in a window of the future, and an echo of the past.  I think of those words with a smile.  Because some of you automatically know what I am speaking of. 



Well, if I gave away all of my secrets, then there wouldn't be one fucking ridiculous story brewing, would there? 

For now, you all will have to sit back and just let your imaginations run wild, and know...deep down...that the continuation has a purpose.  We all, in time, will see the ending that the story deserves. 
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Have an incredible week!  Live, love

Always. 

March 12, 2013

The Safe Zone

Interesting enough for the title of this weeks bullshit.  I know some of you get a kick out of my approach to the constant life scenarios that keep coming up.  The topic of safety came up in a conversation with a friend.  Actually, it came up in more than one conversation I have had this week. 

 
Today is when it hit me.  After much thought about why everything is connected to everything.  After a very intense year that has passed quickly, and brought change after change with it.  And after I realized that everything I want and am chasing after isn't that safe after all. 
 
If I wanted safety, I'd continue to let the boat sail to where it wanted to sail, I'd close my eyes and just hope to end up on the shore that I needed to be on.  While I enjoy the threads of fate and the funny way our lives are connected, I haven't sat back and let it go.  Instead I have jerked the the helm where I wanted it to go, even without knowing it.  After a long conversation about self projection, I see exactly what I needed to see.  I am controlling the sails.  If I wanted to be comfortable I would have stayed in the situation I was in prior to now.  I wouldn't have brought the incredible people and scenarios in to my life.   
 
I don't want to be safe.  I don't want to live my life in the "safe" zone. 
 
I don't want to stay in the comfortable zone of knowing.  I want the unknown.  I want the moments that are defined by the lack of breath in my lungs.  I want the moments that leave me lying awake at night with a heart that is beating fast in anticipation.  I want the moments that require me to have courage and push past the uncomfortable zone to move to the next level.  I want the past, the present and the future to intertwine and ultimately leave me wanting more.  Fuck safety.  I want to be around people who want to move through life just as fiercely as I do.  I want to be around people who leave me breathless with anticipation and drive.  I want to be around passionate people who aren't afraid of what is standing right in front of them.  If I opted for safety then I'd be exactly where I was a year ago, and I won't let that happen. 
 
Comfort and safety are fine.  They just aren't for me, anymore.  I have goals, and dreams.  Dreams that are uncomfortable to think about, let alone the actual road that will lead me to them.  The hard twists and turns in my story leaves the chapters open.  The crescendo is there.  It's been there all along.  It's getting louder and more intense with each passing day that I move towards exactly where I want to be in life. 
I'm tired of safety. 
 


 
Safety isn't all it's cracked up to be.  While I think that being safe is important in a relationship, it isn't what keeps us moving forward and if we live outside of that safe zone, we tend to come to points on our paths that bring people into our lives that are fiery and passionate and fuel our growth. 
I enjoy living from my heart.  I enjoy the attempt I am making at not being so guarded, and letting my heart open up. 
“If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?”
Rumi
It would be a shame to let the love go to waste and continue to dwell on the reasons others do not live the way I do.  It would be tragic to allow certain circumstances to shut my heart down and fear to control who I decide is in my life. 
“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I'll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.”
Rumi


 
I almost lost my touch.  I almost gave in.  I'm glad I didn't.


Live, Love

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March 3, 2013

Cover Your Eyes

"In your light I learn how to love, in your beauty how to make poems, you dance inside my chest where no one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that light becomes this art." Rumi
 
 
 
 
If you keep up with my blog, and are going through a similar part of life, then you know what I'm talking about. 






I'm fighting to keep my head above water, with a pending schedule change looming on the very close horizon, and I have not a clue how I am going to survive it with children in tow.  Not a single, fucking clue. I need to be writing, I am going to need to be able to stay up past 2 am, I need to be cleaning and helping to do homework, and taking care of children and dogs, and school...the list goes on and on. 
Stepping stones.  Something that came up this week in a conversation with a new friend.  As well as confidantes and trust.  Sometimes we aren't shown the reasons that someone is brought into our lives right away.  Their lesson hidden in the broken heart they leave us with, or the sweet taste of an illusioned state of happiness.  Or they were genuine and leave us with a very clear example of love and light. 

We don't see them as stepping stones when we are entangled with them, only after when the reasons might only be beginning to show their secrets.  And even then, it is a blurred line between clarity and mystery. 




I walk through my days, and am constantly aware of timing and those around me.  I am constantly thriving to see the rainbow at the end of the storm.  Focusing on the bright Indigo blues and Sunrise yellows.  I hold that vision in my mind so tightly that I'm not sure that even my saddest of days will take it away.  And how do I know this?  Because every single time I think I might be slipping, a guardian angel comes along and tightly grips my hand and pulls me back up on to my feet.  Not slightly though,  it's a big tug that you can feel all the way into your shoulder blades, their grip causing your hand to turn white with bloodloss.  There are the subtle ones, but it's the huge pulls that will put us back on the right track.  Everyone has a purpose or a time in your life, if you've crossed paths, then there is a reason.  And your purpose is just as strong in theirs. 

Everything is connected to everything. 

I hope everyone has an incredible week.   With spring right around the corner, and the earths renewal starting to take place, I cannot wait for the warmer weather to return once again!  This weeks post was a mix of rambling and insight, but alas, it's exactly what is going through my mind.  Enjoy! 

Live, love


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The Water
"The water calls me. The coastline, with it's dancing waters and salty air. I can't imagine not answering to it. I dream of it, I think about it, and if I close my eyes long enough I can hear the waves. Like music dancing around in the distance. I need to be renewed, I need to hear the waves, smell the salt, and feel the sand between my toes. I was told to make a list. List out all of the obstacles I need in order to return once again, to the water. It's like a drug. Once you've lived near it, you can't seem to get it out of your head, if it is your energizer. It is mine. The sights, the sounds, and touches that accompany the ocean." Tiffany Luv Wright 2013

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